I forgot to post on Monday about what I was planning to work on with UECA! this week. It just hasn’t been on my mind in a while. It’s been two weeks since I did any significant work on the game, and while I feel really guilty for not putting any time into it, I don’t feel the anxiety I used to feel when I was behind on comics. I’m not entirely sure that I miss the anxiety part.
When I was still doing TMABB, drawing every morning was a habit. I didn’t always enjoy it, but I ground away at those strips anyway, because I generally felt like shit when I didn’t. Yeah, that’s obviously the wrong reason to do something, but it kept me working and I rarely missed updates because of it. That’s a good thing, right?
I don’t have that same motivation with this game thing. There are no deadlines, no obligation to the readers. I don’t imagine many people are offended that I’ve missed a few UECA! posts. Yet, nothing is getting done. It’s retarded. I like doing the work once I start doing it. The only problem I have is the starting. I’ve always been like this. I just have this weird anxiety about getting to work on something. It’s the main source of my procrastination habit. And so here we are, thirteen weeks into the project, and I barely feel like I’ve done a week’s worth of work. I don’t stress about it like I did with comics, sure, but I’m also a lot less productive.
How can I get my producitivity back without reintroducing the constant worrying that came with having a webcomic?
I would suggest getting in touch with positive motivations for doing any work. What will your life look like when it done? What does it ‘buy’ you? How will you feel?
If you don’t have compelling answers to those questions you most likely won’t be very motivated. If you find good answers, then you can start to visualize the outcome and the associated feelings to help spur you further down your journey.